✿ May Allah ease everything
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Rumors about me spread so fast that even i couldn't believe it. Many people chat and even call me about it. Yes, as you expect, I'm converting everybody. Sorry but it's not because i don't respect my religion now, i respect my religion but i just want to find Allah's pleasure. Two reasons why, the first one is memang niat saya sejak sekolah menengah, second is i got a Hidayah from my dream. It's up to you whether you want to believe it or not but i know what I'm doing. It's no matter I'm converting or not but i respect my religion and other's as well, I'm not a racist person because there's no religion that allowed it's people to be racist, right? So do i, i hope people will understand why, don't misunderstood my intention, especially because my boyfriend is a Muslim. He's not related at all, I'm not converting because if him, so please understand, if you don't understand, do ask me before you say anything. I can explain it to you. My Muslim name is Nurul Hidayah, Naem suggested it to me, the reason why he suggested that name is because his mother's name also started with Nurul, and Hidayah is because i got Hidayah that not everyone can get. I know that name sounds old fashioned but it has a very good meaning, "cahaya petunjuk". My aunt convince me to change it to Nurul Hidayyah, and she even convince me to add Nurul 'Ain Hidayah, but no, I'm not going to change it. Let it just be Nurul Hidayah. I hope after this i'll be a better person, and solehah in sha Allah. Guide me to the better. May Allah ease everything.
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Enda.
✿ I'm back
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I'm now back to be an active bloggers. It has been a while, I've been leaving this blogging thingy since 2013, because I'm so busy with my study, seriously i don't even have time for myself. And also, there're so many things has changed in my life, i messed up with life and now I'm dealing with the circumstances. I don't know why, but my life now is more to 'complicated' status. I know things changed for good, there's a reason why it happened but until now I'm still figuring it out. I miss my old life, of course the old me, but i like who i am now, because i never see myself more stronger than this, now i can face everything without crying about it all night long. Good job Brenda. I messed up, face it, fix it and move on in life. Karma hit me like thousands of bullets and now i'm fully recovered. I'm just a normal 20 years old adult-to-be, but i have done so much damage to myself that i can't even forgive myself. If you cry just because you have a bad day, stop crying! It's nothing compared to what has happened in my life, if you be me, you might kill yourself, believe me.
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Enda.
I'm now back to be an active bloggers. It has been a while, I've been leaving this blogging thingy since 2013, because I'm so busy with my study, seriously i don't even have time for myself. And also, there're so many things has changed in my life, i messed up with life and now I'm dealing with the circumstances. I don't know why, but my life now is more to 'complicated' status. I know things changed for good, there's a reason why it happened but until now I'm still figuring it out. I miss my old life, of course the old me, but i like who i am now, because i never see myself more stronger than this, now i can face everything without crying about it all night long. Good job Brenda. I messed up, face it, fix it and move on in life. Karma hit me like thousands of bullets and now i'm fully recovered. I'm just a normal 20 years old adult-to-be, but i have done so much damage to myself that i can't even forgive myself. If you cry just because you have a bad day, stop crying! It's nothing compared to what has happened in my life, if you be me, you might kill yourself, believe me.
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Enda.
